That said, I got there early, before there was a family. I was 15 when I went to Kundalini Yoga classes with Jim Baker and we both sat at Yogi Bhajan's feet. So, as you might imagine, my perspective is different from many who came later, after he was more established as everyone's earthly spiritual father. Yes, it was a different time, a time of social experimentation and freeing ourselves from outdated norms. But some norms never become outdated, like not using one's power to subjugate people.
I was 18 when Jim Baker came to me and told me that his wife, Robin, was not healthy enough to conceive a child with him. The way he explained it to me was that, in order to truly become the family's father and start the race of Aquarian children, he needed to have a child of his own. He told me that Robin understood and was supportive. It was only after a few attempts that I saw Robin crying and talked to her, only to find out that she was definitely not okay with it, that it was breaking her heart but she felt she had no choice but to bend to his will. I was horrified. I had not questioned him and he had lied to me. I told Jim that I was done, that I did not feel that our efforts could lead to anything high or cosmic if it was built on Robin's misery. It was a turning point for me. I didn't want to throw the baby out with the bath water. I wanted to stay and learn, but I couldn't forget that he'd lied to me. This man who claimed to be a father to us all, who should have been the one person we could trust, had lied to get what he wanted. Knowing that, I couldn't ignore Jim's interaction with the other women in the family. It's a sad fact that power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely. That's what I saw happen to him. He did what he did because he could. And I knew it would soon be time for me to go.
As far as I'm concerned, Laura is right to speak out. Anyone who whitewashes the real Source Family isn't doing the newly curious, or themselves, any favors. If you are glad you were there, if you embrace having been in the family, by all means, go ahead, revel in it. But if you have to lie or omit the facts in order to embrace it, I suggest you look at that because it does not serve truth.
I am lucky. Because I "knew him when", as they say, I never deified him. I saw him as the human man he was. Jim Baker didn't start out as a sexual predator. I truly believe his intentions were the best, but the limitless power conferred upon him by all his sons and daughters, the power to command their bodies, the power to choose mates for them, the power to have any woman whenever he wished, made him one. For all the women who enjoyed his attention there are many more who did not, who were confused by the idea that their spiritual father wanted to be their lover, who felt betrayed and didn't know what to do about it. Laura is speaking for them and for those who are new to the experience and have been led to believe that the 8x10 glossy is all there was to it. Laura is serving the truth.