Monday, February 1, 2016

Not The Only One

Posted on what has become the facebook 'chat room' for the few remaining diehard followers of 'Yahowha', a couple of fans & followers and a those with a vested financial interest called 'the source family ohana' wall; the one person behind the entire perpetuation of the 'source family'/Father Yod mythos, wrote, "I GUESS every family, every situation and every commune ends up with that one person who makes it their NOW life Mission to make sure everyone is updated on how negative and bad their experience was and how the rest of us are duped spreading unfounded or misunderstood rumors."  OMG!!  Really??  As if it's somehow better to hide and ignore the truth about the deaths of babies and the ingesting of semen and menstrual blood for the hero-worship of Jim Baker along with a 'magical' version of events; then definitely consider me that one person!  But, nothing that I have written about on this blog is 'unfounded or misunderstood rumors'!  Good grief.  But, it is to be expected from the one person who has built her entire life around the hero-worship of Father Yod, and uses the same tactics or ploys to obfuscate and hide the truth!  But, if this person really thinks that I'm 'the only one' to come out of the experience with something other than happy memories; she is more deluded than I thought.  I don't mind being labeled an 'unhappy or disgruntled' former member, if it means telling the truth about the experience rather than opting for her ridiculous rhetoric about 'God-esses' and hero-worship and all the rest of what I consider to be 'spiritual' gobbledegook.   But, this is because this one person has been allowed to 'run amok' unchallenged for so many years now; where the truth has been sacrificed, hidden and buried in order for a couple of people to promote and enrich themselves.  But, I will no longer subscribe to anymore of the whitewashed and idealized version of events or adhere to any sanitized storyline just so a couple of people who see themselves as leaders and authorities on both Jim Baker and the entire 'source family' narrative can maintain their public personas in order to pursue their own personal agendas; which is just one of the reasons I started this blog.  But, I am certainly not 'the only one'; I just happen to be the one who decided to speak out publicly to expose all of the sordid, detrimental and tragic things that happened in The Source Family, and bring some reality or balance to the unchecked hyperbole that up until now has surrounded the whole thing.  But, I am certainly not the only one who was left with disturbing and unsettling feelings and views from being in 'the source family.'  But, there will also always be one person who clings to the past with only their selective ideal memories about what transpired; choosing to ignore or hide anything dark or disturbing, or that doesn't agree with their fairy tale version.  But, it is my feeling that people in the world today want to know the truth about everything, rather than only being fed the false outward appearance of something.  Let the person accusing me of being 'the only one' to challenge her embellished and idealized version actually respond to the very real things that I have exposed here on this blog; such as infant deaths and the practice of 'sex magic', as I have described and let people read/see her explanations of all of that!  Because what I've been writing about on this blog was more than just having a bad experience at summer camp.  It's time that people are told the truth, rather than just being fed more of the same 'spiritualized' source jargon.  But, I am certainly not the 'only one' to have come out of 'the source family' with horror stories and bad memories; I just happen to be the only one to go so public.  But, the narrative of one woman whose own entire 'life mission' has been the promotion and exaltation of Jim Baker to deity status has been one of obfuscation and dissembling about the realities or facts about either the 'sex magic' imposed on the group, or the infant deaths that occurred or any of the other sordid things that took place 40 years ago in The Source Family.  There is just no way in hell that I'm going to turn a blind eye anymore or ignore what really happened in exchange for adhering to a glamorized and sensationalized version of everything in order to appear more appealing to the public, or remain in a tacit silence or attach some kind of pseudo cosmic meaningfulness to all of the harmful, distressing and detrimental things that happened; especially just so one person can maintain their pomposity of being a 'high priestess' or 'temple keeper' as they claim.  So, again I challenge the person trying to dismiss me as being 'the only one' who had a 'bad trip', to openly, publicly and honestly (if that's even possible) address the 'sex magic' called qudosh, and the infant deaths that I have exposed here, and allow the public to decide for themselves.  It's time for the truth, rather than the trumped-up ethicality that's being fobbed off onto the public.  My belief is that once the public has all of the facts; they will decide if Jim Baker's teachings or mores that he imposed on 'the family' are worthy of praise or censure.  Nothing that I have written about on this blog is untrue or did not happen.  Everything that I have written about in this blog actually happened; it just doesn't have a 'spiritualized' spin attached to it as one person continually tries to do.  Covering up the truth or trying to obscure it behind the doctrinaire of 'Yahowha's' followers who use oblique explanations to dismiss and hide everything that went on in The Source Family that the public would find abhorrent does a disservice to all of the former members and their children who feel anger, regret or moral outrage for being forced into practices that were clearly harmful, and who suffered personal and emotional loss or damage for having surrendered their personal freedoms to one man.