Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Archives My Ass

The rallying cry of one person promoting Father Yod and The Source Family is a redundant worn-out proclamation about 'saving the archives.'  The so-called archives that one person is constantly referring consists of the following:  photographs and videos shot/taken by various people who were in 'the family', but whose photographs and videos were expropriated by one person who began her acquisition of absolutely everything that she could get her hands on, over the course of time The Source Family existed.  As one former member recalls, "we all had containers of personal items, but hers was bigger than anyone else!"  That is because this one person would take/commandeer/demand people to turn over any/everything of a material nature to her, under the false pretense of carrying out Father Yod's orders of keeping 'everything' in a centralized location when in reality this one person seized for herself something that should have belonged to everybody who comprised The Source Family, and which should have been shared with all of the other former members rather than used for the self-promotion and aggrandizement of one person.

Taking and commandeering the material possessions of anyone new joining the group to be sold and/or redistributed/given to someone else within the group was also something that was carried out by the more aggressive members.  But, what happened was that one person just acquired everything they could get their hands on in a greedy, grasping way unwilling to share photographs of former member's loved ones, and most egregiously unwilling to allow the mother's who lost their children to have photographs or video footage of their child, and even more cruelly being unwilling to return a child's artwork to that mother.  So, one person clung tightly to every single thing that she expropriated, during The Source Family, and then absconded with and claimed as being her own 'records' or 'archives' which that person has used to promote herself, and take control of the entire narrative of what happened in The Source Family.

Nothing was beyond this one person's reach or grasp from drawings and artwork done by the children to every single photograph, video or tape that she observed another 'family' member to have in their possession.  Although, the acquisition of former member's 'stuff' didn't end when we all dispersed, but continued unabated.  One person continued to expropriate former member's items, by persuading them she only wanted to 'borrow' their tapes or photographs, but never returned once that person gained possession.

The expropriation of people's stuff began, as soon as someone joined The Brotherhood of The Source where anyone with money, a vehicle, cameras, musical equipment or anything of a monetary material nature was taken or expected to be handed over, upon their joining the group.

Parents who have lost their children, since the family ended are not even allowed to have copies of photographs where their child was pictured.  How sad is that?  There were two women in The Source Family, who joined in the early days with their small children----children who passed away years after The Source Family dispersed and yet neither of the women have ever been offered or allowed to have either the artwork their children made, or copies of photographs or videos where their children were pictured.  One woman came into The Source Family with her two young daughters---two little girls who spent years of their young lives in 'the family' with their mother and even though she has since tragically lost both of her daughters; the woman has never been offered or allowed to have copies of photographs that pictured her daughters when they were little girls.

What a simple act of kindness it would be---to have offered both women who lost their children copies of photographs of their children when they were little.  Only a few people had access to a camera, during The Source Family, and so for anyone to have photographs of their children or real family members from that time are greatly appreciated.

No former Source Family member is offered or allowed to have copies of photographs which picture either themselves or their deceased family members----like the woman whose two sisters joined 'the family' along with her, but who tragically lost one of her beloved sisters in an automobile accident years later, but who is not allowed to have copies of any photos or videos where her deceased sister was present, or the man whose own biological mother and brother joined 'the family', but is also not allowed copies of any photos where his deceased mother was pictured.

I am among those whose requests for copies of photographs and videos has been denied, especially my constant request to be allowed to have a copy of the video footage of my son's Dad (Tim Garon) performing his song Woman Beyond The Sun that was used during the credit roll in the 2012 film, although I have offered repeatedly to bear the cost of having a copy made, along with compensation for their time, and yet; I have never been allowed to have a copy of that video clip for my son to have of his Dad performing!

Having photographs of your deceased family members can mean so much to a person, and yet nobody who was in The Source Family has ever been allowed to have copies of photographs of their deceased loved ones!  Any and all requests just fall on deaf ears and are given varying lame excuses of why it's not possible.  The denial of former members of The Source Family to be allowed to have copies of photographs of themselves, their children and deceased family members has been going on for a very long time, by the one person who continues to grasp and hold on tightly claiming ownership of every single photograph or video taken during The Source Family in what can only be described as a selfish and paranoid fear that another former member might take and use/publish photographs that she has taken and used to promote herself!

For someone who is continually extolling 'Source Family values' that Father Yod and The Source Family supposedly represented, their own lack of compassion towards the people who populated 'the family' seems a glaring contradiction, especially since it is the exploitation of all the stories and photographs and music of those people who comprised The Source Family that has been the vehicle for one person to promote themselves, in a greedy, selfish grasping obsession of anything material from The Source Family that one woman is determined to keep all to herself never offering to share/copy photographs or videos with anyone else who shared space with her while in The Source Family.

The woman's only defense in her taking everything that she possibly could when the family abruptly and quickly dispersed is, "nobody came to me and asked me for anything."  It all came down to having access, and one person had access and so they grabbed and took whatever they could when the decision was made that The Source Family would disperse, and so, the lame excuse given is complete rubbish.   Everyone who was there knows very well there was no way in hell this woman would have shared or given anyone asking anything when we were all frantically trying to figure out what we were going to do and where we were going to go when the decision was made that The Source Family would end and that we would all go our separate ways.

The person's lame excuse certainly doesn't apply to the past forty years where a centralized online location for all former 'source family' members could have been created where the cost of having duplicate photographs or videos made would have been mitigated.  Yet, this woman who claims to be a 'high priestess' and a 'temple keeper' among other lofty titles has never offered to share a single thing with anyone else who was with her in The Source Family, because she believes/feels that everything belongs to her, since she absconded with it and held on to it for the past forty years.

I remember after The Source Family ended for a time many of us remained in the Kailua area and this woman was living with her husband and daughter practically across the street from Tim and me.  Tim and I even went over to visit,  but never once during that entire time did she offer anything to either Tim or me that she had taken/left with when the family dispersed.  This woman was holding on to cassette tape recordings of Tim (still is), and photographs and videos of both Tim and me and our son, but never offered to share anything from the experience with either of us!  Nothing!  Ever!

Instead, one person went on to use everything that she took with her when the family dispersed to promote herself by using/exploiting the stories and photographs and music of other people as a vehicle to promote and enrich herself never offering a single thing to anyone else who spent years of their life alongside her in The Source Family.

Anyone who spent years of their life in The Source Family should be allowed access to photographs of their deceased children, siblings, husbands, and friends from that time!  Children who have lost a parent should be allowed copies of either photographs or videos where their parent was pictured.  But, that has never been the case and after forty years of grasping/holding on to every single photograph and every single thing that she possibly could, at this point in time there is no way in hell that this person has any intention of allowing any of the other former family members like myself to have a damn thing.

In appeasement, it has been rumored that a coffee table book of photographs is being compiled, of photographs taken when The Source Family existed; to be sold at some exorbitant coffee table book price with all sales profits going to one person.  Yes, hopefully the photographs of deceased former Source Family members will find their way into a coffee table book, so that former members can view photographs of their deceased loved ones.  Who says there isn't justice in the world, but so much for Source Family 'brother & sisterhood.'

Also, the one person who has been holding photographs, videos and tapes hostage for over forty years has pledged to donate everything that she has in her possession to the UC at Santa Barbara library, which I believe has already been done.  So, for any former Source Family member who would like to view photographs of themselves or their own deceased children and family members----they can now travel to Santa Barbara, and ask if they can please see the photographs and artwork of the children or family members they have lost.